Impatiently Yours

Turned a new, heavy page recently and suddenly my life has no meaning left whatsoever. All the things that I’ve been planning in my head, keeping her at the core of my life, seem frugal now that she won’t be in them. Without her, life is like an unpainted picture, an unfinished story, a song without music, like a body without soul. Sometimes I wish that what if that day instead of IJSC, I would have gone to the school which I had earlier decided to enrol in? Or what if I had never gone to the school picnic, where I first came to know her as a person, and had gone to Baroda as I thought I would? What if I had not shifted to a place near her home and left for home in vacations? What if I had joined MSU and had not gotten into LDRP so I could stay in Gandhinagar? What if I had never met her or grown close to her or hadn’t had the urge to not leave her for a better career in a better college? What if..?

I picked guitar not because (at that time) I loved it, but because it was the same music class as hers. Sometimes I wish that I should have given myself a different angle to watch my life from. Maybe I could’ve understood that she was way out of my league, but instead I was under certain false impressions that a mind of a man is his greatest asset in relationships as well, a laugh is the best gift a man can give to his beloved, un-ending care and supporting in her decisions would make her fall in love with me. Or to love with all my heart was enough to suffice her need of affection. But it feels now that all these things were not enough for her. I’m thrown to a position where I can’t help but pity myself and believe me, that is the worst feeling a man can ever feel. Losing someone is one thing, but losing yourself is the most devastating thing that can ever happen to someone. I tried every damn thing in this world to make her realize that I can be the one who you can live happily ever after with. I agree that I was not one who she dreamt of but I assured her that I would become the one who she would become proud of having in her life. But even after all those efforts if she couldn’t make up her mind, then I’m sorry, I am not a saint. Yes, I loved her, maybe still do. But I cannot live hanging in the balance for the rest of my life. I had to do what I did even if that pierced my heart like a spike.

She always said that I am impatient. I would like to say only one thing to her that – “I waited 4 years for you to say something. How impatient am I?”

A Colorful Delight: Film Review of Goliyon Ki Rasleela - Ramleela

After a very long time I've seen a film with such an element which literally hypnotizes you. The one before this was Dev D! That triggered me to review this film. This was Sanjay Leela Bhansali at his best! A film so colorful has never been shot since I've been watching films. The use of colors in the film is phenomenal; full points on cinematography, brilliantly filmed. Trying to be a film critic, I was trying to find a flaw in the film, but was amazed to the core, couldn't find any; it was FLAWLESS! The way a culture and its rituals are amassed, so much detailing have never been taken care of ever in a Bollywood film. The best still shot of the film was watching Deepika Padukone's balcony from outside, art at its best. Ranveer Singh has proved yet once again that he's going to stay for a very long time in the industry and will keep surprising us with his laudable performances again and again and yet again. The way he changes his expressions from exasperation to innocence to passion is truly admirable. If I have to define him in one word, it would be: virtuoso! Deepika Padukone is one of the top notch actresses and she "acts" in real sense unlike many others who are just glam-dolls. The way she has portrayed different emotions is commendable. She knows how to look sexy even in a ghaghra-choli type of attire. She is one brave actress in today's industry who dons versatile characters everytime. Priyanka Chopra with her one song enhances the mild seduction factor which is throughout the film. Supriya Pathak Kapoor rocks it to the core. You cannot judge her, because she will prove your judgment wrong, everytime! This film clearly states the difference between sensual and sexual. The music of this film takes you to the excursion of Gujarati folk and is very well lyricized according to the film scenes. Monty Sharma, not being a Gujarati has composed a really marvellous score. It gives that finishing touch to the Gujarati-ism in the film. Being a Gujarati himself, Bhansali has created a chef-d'oeuvre and presented a rare side of a Gujarati which world knows nothing about. The way Gujarati culture is inculcated in the film, it feels like you are watching a Gujarati film with Ranveer Singh and Deepika Padukone in it. The comic timing is in correct proportion.

Overall, a film to be watched at least two times; One time to enjoy the film as an audience and second time to enjoy the detailing of the film, especially the colors. Because you never know when will you be able to see such a COMPLETE film again. Don't miss it! Kudos to the whole team! It's a team effort, because a cruise cannot sail through the sea by just the captain of the ship, sailors are essential!